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Mullin
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2004 11:56 am Post subject: Kurt Cobain |
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I found this on the net today, I have never read it before, but it touched me more than I could explain and I wanted to share it with you.
To Boddah pronounced
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile camplainee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years. Since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the exitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things. For example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins it doesn't affect the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury who seemed to love and relish in the love and adoration from the crowd. Which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is I can't fool you. Any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to put people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100 % fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do. God, believe me I do but it's not enough.
I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last three tours I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too f***ing sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, pisces Jesus man! Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know. I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be.
Full of love and joy kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along, and have empathy. Empathy! Only because I love and feel for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore and so remember, its better to burn out than to fade away. Peace, love, empathy. Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney
For Frances
For her life which will be so much happier without me. I Love you. I love you!
I dont really know how to follow that, but any comments from yourselves wouldnt go a miss.
Amy Mullin - 07/09/04 |
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ash_the_minx
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2004 1:44 pm Post subject: |
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aww especiall the bit to his daughter!!!!!
I like that poster on ants door!! i cant rememeber what it says tho! |
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Mullin
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2004 1:44 pm Post subject: |
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| Its the lyrics from Dumb yeah he looks really sad in that poster... |
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ash_the_minx
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2004 1:45 pm Post subject: |
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| I know!! Sob! |
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Mullin
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2004 1:46 pm Post subject: |
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| I had never read the suicide note till today! I had heard people talk about and read snipits from it but never the whole thing... :( |
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ash_the_minx
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2004 6:10 pm Post subject: |
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| I never knew there was a suicide note until today! |
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Mullin
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Wed Sep 08, 2004 8:17 am Post subject: |
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| No way really!..... :shock: |
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ash_the_minx
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Wed Sep 08, 2004 6:01 pm Post subject: |
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| Really!" |
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Mullin
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Thu Sep 09, 2004 8:11 am Post subject: |
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| Well that is just mad! As there was so much contraversy over his death and his suicide note played a big part! People still think that he was killed! |
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ash_the_minx
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Thu Sep 09, 2004 6:32 pm Post subject: |
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I still think courtney did it!!! mmm I would love to write an article on marliyn monroe right now on this!!
oh I can she did music!!! |
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Mullin
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Fri Sep 10, 2004 8:07 am Post subject: |
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| Yeah she did not much but she was a legend! So go for it! |
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ash_the_minx
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Fri Sep 10, 2004 5:42 pm Post subject: |
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| I did it in the hot tub instead!! as youve prob seen already I just havent checked it yet! My page always comes first! :D |
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Mullin
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Sun Sep 19, 2004 11:51 am Post subject: |
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| Yeah me to although not today as i saw you had posted so much so i saved the best till last! |
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ash_the_minx
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Sun Sep 19, 2004 7:22 pm Post subject: |
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| I know i posted so much and so have you today my arms are hurting already to write back!! |
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Mullin
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| Tell a Friend Posted: Mon Sep 20, 2004 9:43 am Post subject: |
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| Aww didums! Well you will have loads to reply to tonight to! |
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